about my feelings

you really really have no idea about what I feel, my feelings:((
you still don't understand me, baby


sampai kapan kamu harus bertingkah seakan akan aku bukan siapa siapa buat kamu?
sampai kapan kamu terus terus mempermalukan ku di depan mereka?
sampai kapan kamu menganggap semua lelucon yg kamu buat itu lucu dan nggak menyakitkan buat aku?
sampai kapan kamu nggak mikir sebelum ngeluarin kata kata menyakitkan itu?
sampai kapan aku harus nyembunyiin rasa kecewa ku sm sikapmu ke aku sayang?
sampai kapan sayang? sampai kapan?

mungkin buat kamu, omonganmu itu lucu dan cuma buat bercanda aja
tapi jujur sayang, itu menyakitkan buat aku. banget sakitnya<////3

kamu bangganya kalo punya mobil bagus
kamu bangganya kalo d cari cari cewek banyak
kamu bangganya kalo punya cewek banyak
kamu bangganya kalo punya cewek cantik, putih
kamu bangganya jadi artis, famous

kamu nggak pernah bangga punya aku
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama aku yg jelek
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama aku yg item
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama aku yg gak bisa apa apa
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama aku yg nggak sempurna
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama aku yg perhatiin kamu
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama aku yg ngelakuin apa aja yg buat kamu seneng
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama aku yg rela mondar mandir buat ke rumah mu
kamu nggak pernah bangga sama semua yg ada di aku:((

what if you never love me?
what if you don't care about me?
what if for you, I'm just a joke?
what if you never wanna serious with me?
what if you're just using me?
what if you're just wanna playing around with me?

what if? what if? what if?

sayang, aku tau aku bukan cewek cantik, aku emang nggak putih
tapi aku pacarmu, aku orang yg sayang sama kamu
pacarmu bukan robot sayang, pacarmu itu cewek lembek yg sensitif
pacarmu nggak bakal bisa ngomong langsung ke kamu tentang apa yg dia rasain, dia bakal sembunyiin itu dari kamu. sebisa mungkin dia pasti nyembunyiin itu
tapi jangan lupa, pacarmu juga punya hati, punya perasaan
jangan sering sering bikin sedih. kamu nggak kasihan sama pacarmu?
pacarmu sayaaaang banget sama kamu
tau sendiri sampek dia ngelakuin apa aja yg kamu mau, itu buat kamu kan
sekarang buktiin dong kalo kamu juga sayang sama pacarmu
masa gitu caranya nunjukin kalo kamu sayang sm pacarmu ini?
di pikir lagi ya sayang. Iloveyoualwaays♥

with my deepest love,

for my Ardhya Nuh Prananta ♡

my favorite drama movie! ♥

aku emang suka banget sama yg namanya film drama. apalagi yg satu ini. ngga bosen bosen aku liat film ini meskipun udah nangis mewek mewek, tapi tetep suka banget♥ 
this is it  A WALK TO REMEMBER!!♥ ♥ 
film ini di bintangi sama Mandy Moore as Jammie Elizabeth Sullivan sama yg cowok nama aslinya Shane West as Landon Lawrence Carter

yaaaaaaaaaa aku tau sih mungkin kalian udah pada nonton film ini... tapi aku pengen aja posting ttg film ini hihi

Jamie: You don't know the first thing about being someone's friend.
Landon: I don't want to just be your friend.
Jamie: You don't know what you want.
Landon: Neither do you. Maybe you're just too scared that someone might actually want to be with you.
Jamie: And why would that scare me?
Landon: Because then you wouldn't be able to hide behind your books, or your frickin' telescope, or your faith. No, no, you know the real reason why you're scared? It's cause you wanna be with me too.

 

Landon: Jamie... I love you.
Landon: Now would be the time to say something.  

Jamie: I told you not to fall in love with me. 

 Landon: I might kiss you.
Jamie: I might be bad at it.
Landon: That's not possible.

 

Jamie: You're acting like a crazy person, what's going on? 

Landon: Ok, right now, you're straddling the state line. 

Jamie: OK... 

Landon: You're in two places at once.

Landon: Can you find this star, right here?
Jamie: Sure. So why am I looking for this star?
 Landon: Because I had it named for you. See? It's official. It's from the International Star Registry.
Jamie: This is wonderful...I love you.

 

Jammie: Landon, I'm sick

Landon:  okay, I'll take you home quickly

Jammie: No! Landon I'm sick.. I have leukemia 

Landon: You're just kidding! No! you're 18, you. you're perfect!

Jammie: I have leukemia since two years ago, I don't tell anybody else

Landon: why you didn't tell me before?

Jammie: especially you! I have no reason to be angry with God

Landon: Are you scared?
Jamie: To death?
Jamie: heii.. Lighten up.
Landon: It's not funny.
Jamie: I'm scared of not being with you.
Landon: Oh baby, that will never happen... I'll be here. 

Jamie: You know what I figured out today?
Landon: What?
Jamie: Maybe God has a bigger plan for me than I had for myself. Like this journey never ends. Like you were sent to me because I'm sick. To help me through all this. You're my angel.

 Landon: "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful"

 Landon: Do you love me? will you do something for me then?

Jammie: Anything

Landon: Will you marry me?

Landon: I'm sorry she never got her miracle.
Reverend Sullivan: She did. It was you. 

Landon: Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything. About life, hope and the long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it. 

THE END~